Source of Inspiration

"sumber inspirasi"

Hahahahahahhahhaha. gediknya frasa.

beberapa ketika yang lalu, aku jumpa seorang insan ni. ye, insan. Islam, Alhamdulillah. ye, lain jantina. saya straight ok, harap maklum. hahaha. ok. dia ni takla hensem mana tapi macam hm entahla seolah-olah dia ada daya tarikan (ala macam Van der Waal forces tu eh oops fizik pulak heheh) yang tersendiri. kalau nak ikutkan, kawan dia lagi handsome hahahaha tapi entahla aku macam berkenan kat dia. hm. dia nampak macam a true 17-year-old la, the kind of guy yang my seniors used to be when they were 17, tak macam budak batch aku yang mostly still look very childish although dah 17 (eh no offense ok) :> tinggi. agak peramah la kot tetapi oleh sebab kesombongan dan kependiaman aku pada kala itu menyebabkan aku terlepas peluang untuk mengenalinya dengan lebih lanjut. but he talked to me first, that day. dia tegur. tanya nama. negeri. eh ke dia dah tahu nama aku masa tu and dia tanya negeri je. entahlaaa. hahahahahaha. tu je la kot, among the times i actually spoke to him.

then yelah lepas program tu aku pun pegi la search ig dia, twitter dia. dan dengan rasa tidak malunya aku pun menekan butang follow. mesti dia pelik kan. mana tah datang budak ni. eh tapi salah dia jugakla. siapa suruh tak privatekan instagram. kan dah kena follow. hahahhahahaah. pastu dia pun follow balik.  ok excited la. jugak. kinda.  tapi yelah kalau dah orang follow kita mestilah kita nak follow balik kan. soooo hmm agaknya sebab tu la kot dia follow back. hahahaha. lepastu tetiba that one day macam terdetik hati nak check facebook. oh sebab lama tak dapat notification. rupanya my cousin ke my adik guna facebook that day and log out, leaving my account not logged in lah. that's why takde notification. i casually check la notis kan, then ada friend request. at first nak ignore je tapi entah macam mana bukak jugak. and guess who?.................hahahahahahahahaha yep! that guy. masa tu i was with my cousins and i literally screamed tau i was like oh my goodness it's him hahahhahahahha kelakar sungguh masa tu. and my cousins were like weh kenapa siapa yeeeerrrr ni mesti crush ni kan aku pun macam omaigod pls la aku ni setakat sekali dua je berborak dengan dia how can i have a crush on him? but pada saat itulah aku pun macam terfikir, eh aku ni suka kat dia ke? hahahahha. nak dijadikan cerita, selepas insiden itu aku pun approve la friend request dia. pastu aku tweet "literally screamed *emoji malu*" pastu I put away my phone sebab tengah charging. an hour later, i checked my phone and scrolled down my twitter timeline and GUESS WHAT 20 MINUTES AFTER I TWEETED THAT HE ACTUALLY TWEETED SOMETHING VERY SIMILAR TO WHAT I JUST TWEETED AND I WAS LIKE O-KAYYYYYYYYYYY ADAKAH INI SURATAN ATAU KEBETULAN? ceh hahahhahhahahhahahha ok excited gila la masa tu ya Allahhhhh hahahhaha ok ok ok

oh and pasal sumber inspirasi tu. yelah dah aku follow ig & twitter dia & friends dalam fb memang setiap kali dia post memang keluar la kat feed aku. and dari situlah aku tahu he's a debater. a gempak one la i think sebab his team won something in a tournament. oh and then he is such a positive person, aku baca tweet dia, the photos he shared and posted on instagram i was like bapak ah budak ni positive gila i mean you don't get to meet people like this everywhere. Which is why, he is somehow some kind of an inspiration for me. I want to be like him. As motivated as him. He has his goals and I have mine. The only difference is that he actually works for it, and I am still procrastinating. I really want to be someone like him. Inspirational, diligent, opinionated and fun at the same time.

Doakan aku. In Shaa Allah Allah balas jasa kalian doakan aku.
Jazakillahu khairan kathiran.